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Let's see.. I haven't posted an actual entry since August 28th.

Not even a week after that I found out my Mom has cancer.

It was at that point I kind of forced myself into this "searching for myself state". Cheesey, yeah, but these past 2 months or so, since I found out she had cancer, have been very eye opening to me.

I've always wanted to talk about it in here. How I felt, what I was thinking.. but not only was it very difficult to express, but I just would rather keep it to myself. Mostly because I didn't like to think about it.

She's okay. She was in the hospital for about a month, was home for 3 weeks or so, and is back in the hospital for more treatment. We're not really sure how long she will need treatment, but hey, as long as she gets better.

I kind of hid from updating mostly because I didn't know where to begin. Lots has happened. But, I figured what would be best is to give a very quick run down.

I can drive now.
Jessie and I are great.
I have a new found motivation for school.
I'm poor as hell.

I've also been planning things a lot lately. A great escape, if you will. I've decided that I am sticking with the 2 years at AiP I am currently in. I sort of don't have much of a choice due to the way my loans were handled.. because I'll be paying out my ass when I finish these 2 years, but honestly I could get that figured out if I wanted to continue 4. The main purpose for this is that I want to start my life. Jumping the gun? No. I don't think so. I'm doing the final 2 years, I swear it, but just not now. I want a solid footing before I do anything further like that. I can't live with my parents another 2 years.. and I can't move out if I'm still going to school. It's just like that. I honestly feel like I'm ready to begin, and in retrospect, I'm glad I chose to do 2 years. Ok.. so.. I won't be as skilled as I would like to be.. and maybe I won't be ready to start a steady job in the Graphic Design field.. but I'm confident. I'm confident that with alittle experience I will be just fine. Meaning.. the plan is to jump straight into freelancing hardcore the second I get out of school. The idea behind that is to get REAL experience and maybe use that to get an actual Graphic Design Job. Granted.. it's very possible to get a Graphic Design job right out of school and with the associates degree I'll be getting.. but, I'm not expecting it. Mainly because yeah, I won't be skilled enough at that point. I know I won't be, and I've accepted that. But, who said I still can't stretch what I have and improve?

Ok, maybe not the greatest plan for getting out of school.. but you know what, life is about surprises. I am very confident about this. One step at a time, you know? I dunno, just, I'm ready to start my life, and this is the best way I can comfortably do it. School isn't my thing.. I'm more all about jumping in balls to the wall and getting experience for what I actually need.

I dunno, makes sense to me.

Things.. seem different. Clearer? Who knows.

More at 11.

lolcardboard

Dave accidentally got sugar free vanilla wafers out of the vending machine. I'm laughing at his misery right now. I mean seriously, of all things to accidentally get.

To make him feel better I tried one.

It's kind of like eating cardboard coated in nutrisweet. Good times.

Check Out My New Kicks

School is starting for everyone again. It's weird seeing everyone else change up their schedule and everything and not having to do a single thing myself.

Remember back in the day, maybe even a little bit today, when school shopping just made you feel like you were the shit? First couple days of school you would try to find your coolest shirt you bought from Walmart or the mall and wear that shit with pride. It still had that hasn't been washed look and smelled new to.

Looking around at kids just starting school again, I see it a lot. it's more noticeable with guys though, I think. Like, there is this one kid at my sisters bus stop. He comes walking up in his brand new stone cold t-shirt, new khakis and his imitation skate shoes from Payless. Every five seconds he would look down at himself, bring his hands down and fix his shirt. Or brush off his shoe. Or whatever. Just to make sure he still looks good.

But of course, come October and that kid won't give 2 shits about stone cold and his corny t-shirt.



Admit it though, we all did it, and to be honest, I still feel pretty damn good in a fresh from the mall ansomble.

Fall Schedule!

Monday - Digital Illustration: 8A - 12P
Tuesday - Speech CIDA course: 8A - 10A
Wednesday - NOTHIN
Thursday - Speech CIDA course: 8A - 10A, Corporate Identity: 12:45P - 4:45P
Friday - Digital Image Manipulation II: 8A - 12P


I'm rockin 3 classes with Dave this quarter, which will be cool. It's especially going to be good with him in Speech.. because when there's someone I know in the crowd it's so much easier speaking publically.

Not to bad, I just wish I diddn't have to wake up at 5 for all of them. The upside is that only 1 of my days goes to 5 at night, so that will be a relief. Question is, I was thinking about saying I'm available to work one of those days, because I'll really only be available 3 days to work otherwise. Whoooo knows.

On a similar note, I hate my online classes I'm taking right now. Contrary to what i thought before, these seem to take more of my time than my classes at the school. Oh well, still better than going though, I guess. They're just really hard.

Homeward Bound

So, in about 15 minutes or so, I'll be leaving Virginia.

I enjoyed myself this year.. it was nice to be away and relax a bit, but there's no place like home. It is kind of going to suck to get back to the real world though. Back to work. Back to school in a month and a half. Back to life. But I don't mind.

I dunno, it's like, when I'm on trips like this, I always think about how different my routine is when I'm here compared to when I'm home. It makes me feel more motivated to do more productive things, but I'm afraid that feeling is just going to go out the door once I get home. But I'm going to try to commit.. cuz there a lot of unfinished things I have to get done.

All in all, I'm ready to go back to PA though.. my Dad makes fun of my sideburns to much.

Swans Reflecting Elephants

I still stand by the notion that this is one of the single coolest men to ever grace this earth.



Just try to argue that, I dare you.

In Other News

Heroes starts soon!

I'm almost as excited as this guy. He's ready for Heroes too, I bet. What else in life is there to be pumped about? Seriously.


4 months is way to long to wait for something so amazing.