John Boord let me borrow his Wii for a while while he takes midterms and things... this is great for me cuz I've been waiting to play Zelda:Twilight Princess for quite some time. I've very grateful and really appreciate him letting play it for awhile.. and for that.. he is my new god.
I encourage everyone to do so.
Anyways, so, I've been in a bit of a slump lately. I've just felt down. I would get inspired to go gung ho about things, and then something happens and I just fall apart. I don't feel like doing anything productive. Not a thing. I don't know what's wrong with me and it's really really bringing me down.
I really like my Illustration class. I've mentioned this before. I really like the whole idea of what an Illustrator does and what they are about.. but I just can't get myself to be serious about this class. I had to miss last week because of some unforeseen circumstances.. and you'd think I'd kick into gear and catch up..
Think again.
I mean.. call it lazy, call it what you want.. but I think it has a lot to do with distractions and me just overall not feeling like doing anything.
So.. I had a sudden thought.. something that could probably kill me.
But.. I realize a big reason to me being distracted is my little baby I call my computer. I can't pull away from the thing. I just can't do it. It's been pretty obvious but I never wanted to accept the fact that this is a big reason why I'm slipping, probably because I love it so much and don't want to be without it... sitting on my computer has become a part of my daily life and pulling away from that is hard.
But..
I really, really think I need to pull away for a bit. At the very least until midterm when this project is finished. I'm thinking maybe just giving my computer tower to my Stepdad for a few, or maybe just simply giving him my keyboard and mouse so that i can still stay connected to aim in case anyone wants to message me. but to be honest it would probably be more effective if I just got rid of it all together.
John Boord doesn't think I can do it. He said flat out he has absolutely no faith in me. Not that I blame him.. I do have a habit of getting great ideas and never following through with them..
But this is serious. I need to find a way to get myself back into school. It's become a serious problem that I constantly think about and I have to do something to help myself.
What do you think? Think I can do it? Give up the computer for a few weeks so I'm not distracted to go on the computer? I don't know..
If I go through with this, I'll probably start it on Monday.. but I think I really want to give this a shot. I don't want to be useless anymore.
If I do this, I will still have access to the internet via the Wii, so maybe I'll still post blogs and stuff to keep everyone updated? Maybe that's cheating.. but to be honest I can't use the Wii's internet browser for very long before I go mad with lack of keyboard.
Well, let me know what you think of this.. think I can do it? I'll give the final word tomorrow or Monday.
I'm tired of complaining about this. I'm tired of being useless. It's time to step up.
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