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Let's see.. I haven't posted an actual entry since August 28th.

Not even a week after that I found out my Mom has cancer.

It was at that point I kind of forced myself into this "searching for myself state". Cheesey, yeah, but these past 2 months or so, since I found out she had cancer, have been very eye opening to me.

I've always wanted to talk about it in here. How I felt, what I was thinking.. but not only was it very difficult to express, but I just would rather keep it to myself. Mostly because I didn't like to think about it.

She's okay. She was in the hospital for about a month, was home for 3 weeks or so, and is back in the hospital for more treatment. We're not really sure how long she will need treatment, but hey, as long as she gets better.

I kind of hid from updating mostly because I didn't know where to begin. Lots has happened. But, I figured what would be best is to give a very quick run down.

I can drive now.
Jessie and I are great.
I have a new found motivation for school.
I'm poor as hell.

I've also been planning things a lot lately. A great escape, if you will. I've decided that I am sticking with the 2 years at AiP I am currently in. I sort of don't have much of a choice due to the way my loans were handled.. because I'll be paying out my ass when I finish these 2 years, but honestly I could get that figured out if I wanted to continue 4. The main purpose for this is that I want to start my life. Jumping the gun? No. I don't think so. I'm doing the final 2 years, I swear it, but just not now. I want a solid footing before I do anything further like that. I can't live with my parents another 2 years.. and I can't move out if I'm still going to school. It's just like that. I honestly feel like I'm ready to begin, and in retrospect, I'm glad I chose to do 2 years. Ok.. so.. I won't be as skilled as I would like to be.. and maybe I won't be ready to start a steady job in the Graphic Design field.. but I'm confident. I'm confident that with alittle experience I will be just fine. Meaning.. the plan is to jump straight into freelancing hardcore the second I get out of school. The idea behind that is to get REAL experience and maybe use that to get an actual Graphic Design Job. Granted.. it's very possible to get a Graphic Design job right out of school and with the associates degree I'll be getting.. but, I'm not expecting it. Mainly because yeah, I won't be skilled enough at that point. I know I won't be, and I've accepted that. But, who said I still can't stretch what I have and improve?

Ok, maybe not the greatest plan for getting out of school.. but you know what, life is about surprises. I am very confident about this. One step at a time, you know? I dunno, just, I'm ready to start my life, and this is the best way I can comfortably do it. School isn't my thing.. I'm more all about jumping in balls to the wall and getting experience for what I actually need.

I dunno, makes sense to me.

Things.. seem different. Clearer? Who knows.

More at 11.

lolcardboard

Dave accidentally got sugar free vanilla wafers out of the vending machine. I'm laughing at his misery right now. I mean seriously, of all things to accidentally get.

To make him feel better I tried one.

It's kind of like eating cardboard coated in nutrisweet. Good times.

Check Out My New Kicks

School is starting for everyone again. It's weird seeing everyone else change up their schedule and everything and not having to do a single thing myself.

Remember back in the day, maybe even a little bit today, when school shopping just made you feel like you were the shit? First couple days of school you would try to find your coolest shirt you bought from Walmart or the mall and wear that shit with pride. It still had that hasn't been washed look and smelled new to.

Looking around at kids just starting school again, I see it a lot. it's more noticeable with guys though, I think. Like, there is this one kid at my sisters bus stop. He comes walking up in his brand new stone cold t-shirt, new khakis and his imitation skate shoes from Payless. Every five seconds he would look down at himself, bring his hands down and fix his shirt. Or brush off his shoe. Or whatever. Just to make sure he still looks good.

But of course, come October and that kid won't give 2 shits about stone cold and his corny t-shirt.



Admit it though, we all did it, and to be honest, I still feel pretty damn good in a fresh from the mall ansomble.

Fall Schedule!

Monday - Digital Illustration: 8A - 12P
Tuesday - Speech CIDA course: 8A - 10A
Wednesday - NOTHIN
Thursday - Speech CIDA course: 8A - 10A, Corporate Identity: 12:45P - 4:45P
Friday - Digital Image Manipulation II: 8A - 12P


I'm rockin 3 classes with Dave this quarter, which will be cool. It's especially going to be good with him in Speech.. because when there's someone I know in the crowd it's so much easier speaking publically.

Not to bad, I just wish I diddn't have to wake up at 5 for all of them. The upside is that only 1 of my days goes to 5 at night, so that will be a relief. Question is, I was thinking about saying I'm available to work one of those days, because I'll really only be available 3 days to work otherwise. Whoooo knows.

On a similar note, I hate my online classes I'm taking right now. Contrary to what i thought before, these seem to take more of my time than my classes at the school. Oh well, still better than going though, I guess. They're just really hard.

Homeward Bound

So, in about 15 minutes or so, I'll be leaving Virginia.

I enjoyed myself this year.. it was nice to be away and relax a bit, but there's no place like home. It is kind of going to suck to get back to the real world though. Back to work. Back to school in a month and a half. Back to life. But I don't mind.

I dunno, it's like, when I'm on trips like this, I always think about how different my routine is when I'm here compared to when I'm home. It makes me feel more motivated to do more productive things, but I'm afraid that feeling is just going to go out the door once I get home. But I'm going to try to commit.. cuz there a lot of unfinished things I have to get done.

All in all, I'm ready to go back to PA though.. my Dad makes fun of my sideburns to much.

Swans Reflecting Elephants

I still stand by the notion that this is one of the single coolest men to ever grace this earth.



Just try to argue that, I dare you.

In Other News

Heroes starts soon!

I'm almost as excited as this guy. He's ready for Heroes too, I bet. What else in life is there to be pumped about? Seriously.


4 months is way to long to wait for something so amazing.

Less Than A Week Left

Oh snap.

It's into the 2nd week I've been gone now, and I'm really starting to miss everything more and more. I enjoy ti out here, I really do, but it's no place like home, ya know?

I don't really have any new pictures for you all, we haven't done much the past couple days because it's been so damn hot. We went swimming at my aunt's house, but I forgot my camera.

I'm not positive when I'm coming home.. I'd like to be home Saturday, but I may have to wait until Sunday. Who knows.

Lately. I don't know why.. but lately I feel a lot less.. tolerant. I don't know how to explain it, but except for a few select people, I've just been getting irritate. I've been cranky and unmotivated. Maybe it's just because I haven't gotten out much since I've been here. Maybe I'm so used to keeping to myself when I'm at home that when I'm around my parents or whatever here 24/7, I just get irritated. Maybe I'm just in a mood. Who knows. lol.

I'm ready for bed.. but unfortunately I got homework to do. I'm ready for school to be over.. to bad I still have another year. or 3. I can hear Dave now.. "GTFO, your goin another 3, bitch". Haha. Maybe Dave, maybe.

I'm way to uncertain with my life anymore. I have so much I want to do but have no idea how it would pan out.

I guess I'll find out as the year goes on.

I just hope this up comming year is better than this year..

/depressing bitching

Go Speed Racer!

So, last night we were all deciding on what we should do. We wanted to go somewhere but the only place we could think of was the town fair thing. Think Firemans Festival but a little bigger, has lawn mower races and an admission price. Yeah. No thanks. We then found this go cart place about 20 minutes away, which was really freakin sweet.

On another note.. I really miss you guys.

300 Miles Away

I've been in Virginia for about 5 days now, and I have to say i'm enjoying myself. Like I thought, there really isn't much here, but we're making the best of what we got. I went to see a movie with my sister the other day, which was cool, and I've been driving every day. I'll tell ya, Virginia roads are treacherous. Everywhere you go there's a sharp bend or dip that will send you flying if your not paying attention. But, clearly, I'm awesome and it's no problem for the likes of me.

Being here, I've noticed a few things about Virginians and the state itself:
They love their hay bails,
They don't know how to cut hair,
They like to put speedbumps in the most awkward of places
They like to think they're southern and cowboy-ish, but don't quite make the cut
They LOVE their biscuits and gravy. They even sell it at Mcdonalds,
Compact cars and minivans are the minority of automobiles. Drive a pickup truck or your a pussy in their book.
Belt buckles are a fashion standard. The bigger the belt buckle, the bigger the man, clearly.

Haha, I poke fun, but to be honest it's not that bad a place. It's not SO southern where rednecks are coming out of the woodwork, and it's really laid back and peaceful. Most of the people are nice and friendly. THERE'S JUST NOTHING TO DOOO.

Really though, it's just such a jump compared to Jersey and PA. You'd be surprised how many differences there are in a neighboring state.

EDIT!! I had some photobucket issues and ended up breaking all the things from earlier.. so I had to go in and redo the pictures.. they may be a bit different cuz I couldn't remember exactly how they went >.< Also, Dave, you might wanna change the link of the picture in your comment =P



This is one of the nicest and best behaved dogs I've ever met. Meet Casey. The little one is bling, he's ok, I guess. =)




That's My Stepmommy =)












Casey loves me




My ball biatch!



















Stepmom believes she's queen of the world










Got my hur-did







This one cracks me up

The Mind Of A Seven Year Old

So I walked into the kitchen earlier to see my sister going to town on an innocent Klondike bar.. and I asked her what she had for lunch..

She looks at me with those big blue eyes of hers and goes "This is lunch."



Ahh, boy do I miss the days where icecream was considered a full course meal.

You Can't Go Without Your Fruit Loops

So as I mentioned earlier I'm gonna be out in Virginia for 2 weeks starting next Saturday, and it's bumming me out a little just because when I get back, summer is pretty much over. Not for me, maybe, but for alot of you since a lot of people will be leaving for their second year of school in September. That really blows, I'll have you know.

I figured, that since I never really got a Cedar Point update up, I'll show off just a bunch of pictures I collected over the summer so far... well, I'm kind of lazy and picky, so, if you havn't yet you should just head on over to my Photobucket!! http://s141.photobucket.com/albums/r52/jam1536/

However, no matter how lazy, I cannot refrain myself from posting this picture

Rants Of A Sandwhich Artist

These past couple weeks have been nuts. Last week at work, two people went on vacation for the week, so we were terribly short on people. Me being the superhero I am of course ended up filling in for the majority of their shifts. THEN some unfortunate things happened to two other people who worked there, so I ended up filling in for some of them too.. so my ass has been moving lately.

Ohh, and on top of me working a ton of days, that damned Fireman Festavil was going on all week, so it's been nuts some of the days this week too..

I've been working at Subway for 2 years now, and although it kind of bugs me, I don't mind it. But, I realized something. Sometimes, when I'm working, certain customers just PISS me off. Sure, there are the ones who don't know a lick about sandwich purchasing, but it goes beyond that. One of the BIGGEST pet peeves of mine working with customers is..

Customers with bad hair cuts.

It's kind of hard to explain, but ever second I am waiting on someone with a really stupid haircut is excruciating and painful. 9 times out of 10 they don't even get any kind of ridiculous order either, just the fact that I have to look at them for 3 to 5 minutes is enough to put me in the foulest of moods.

It's just the whole time I'm making their food, I look at them and wonder their thought process in deciding on that particular do. "Do they think it looks good? I wonder if their really blind? No.. they wouldn't know what to choose for their sub." That's the kind of thing that shoots through my mind while I have to make their food.

It's sick, I know, that THAT is what pisses me off the most about working there, but it's just something about someone with a bad haircut that rubs me the wrong way.

Kara can cut hair, maybe I can convince them to let her.

Heh.

Summer's Halfway Over Already!

SO

I took a bit of a break from posting. Not really sure why, but oh well, I'm back.

School started up but.. oh my I don't have to go! Whoooooo. Heh, well, sort of. I'm online classing it up, which in some ways I do regret, but to be honest all that damn commuting kills a person on the inside and I just want a damn summer. Damn it. So far I'm kind of dragging with my new class but I'm getting into it. I'm taking Modern Art History right now and I just finished an assignment a bit ago and I feel really good about it, and I'm not really sure why. I guess I'm just glad to not be worrying about Algebra =D

I was cutting the grass yesterday and I got smacked in the eye by a low flying beetle. It was good times. Just one more thing to add to the ever growing list of why I hate cutting the grass.

I had a conversation with Nathan last night concerning tattoos. I really wanna get one soon, but don't really have the cash for the one I want to get, so I'm thinking of something a little smaller that won't ruin me financially. Any ideas? Although not small, the only ideas I could think of at the time were JORGASM across my chest in cliche gothic type or Elton John and 2pac on the respective ass cheeks bringing together once more my all time favorite music duo of all time. No? Awwe, shucks.

I'm leaving soon for Virginia, which I'm excited about. I'll be gone the 28th to the 11th. Then, after that, my family is all going on vacation on the 15th till.. whenever. Well, without me of course, so anyone wanna come over? Haha. I'm excited to go to Virginia and see my Dad, it just kind of sucks it's pretty much at the end of summer. Just all this crap came up and I kept having to push it back. But oh well. I'm gonna be gone for 2 weeks, so who's gonna miss me!?

*crickets*

Hm. Well then.

Rawr

I'm in a great mood.



OFFTOWORKNAOLAWLZZ

DK ... DONKEY KONG

I know I said I was going to update the day after the last post... but I diddn't. Clearly.

I blame this guy.



As well as this douche bag.



See, the Wii's virtual console has stolen my heart, and I can't pull away, because Star Fox 64 and Donkey Kong Country needed my immediate attention. Sooo I kind of got distracted by that and thus diddn't do shit.

Eh, that and I havn't really been feelin my best lately...

But anyways, yes.

I WILL get Cedar Point post up soon, if not later tonight. A long with a real update on something worth while, as opposed to a picture of Chis sitting on a 50 dollar foldable chair.

Furniture Shopping

"As far as foldable chairs go, this is the Cadillac."



Lots been going on lately, tomarrow things are finally going to slow down for a bit, so, expect a sweet entry then.

Oh man, last day of class...


I think I might wet myself.

Deep Breath

So this week has been rediculous.

Rock bottom hell rediculous, pretty much.

I've just overall been really stressed out about things...

School and work have been tearing me apart, and toss in a few things going on in my world right now.. and you got yourself a pot of wigged out Jordan.

You should've seen me this morning.. not only did I pull an all nighter to horribly pump out a project, and two math assignments but I was under the wire to finish putting together the presentation of the project (Put it on board, put a cover over it, ect.) and I am just cussing it out left and right as Dave just had a grand ole time watching me. The board wouldn't cut right, the tape wouldn't stick, time was ticking... I just about snapped.

I thought for sure I was not only gonna get a late penalty but a shit grade because personally the project just wasn't up to par.

Well to my pleasent suprise, I actually got a decent grade. Honestly, I think he was a bit lenient.. it was pretty bad, but it's cool, because I think I'm going to get an A in that class now and that rocks.



That's my grade, A for the concept, A- for the drawing, B+ for the technique and A- for crastmanship. Not to shabby for a pile of poo. In my opinion anyway.

It's ok though, because over summer I'm going to redo it over summer because the idea is just to cool to be left in a shitty state such as it is. =)

But yeah, getting that project in lifted a TON of weight off my shoulders. I feel like I can breathe now. It's nice. This morning I was ready to take the bridge, I swear.

But I decided against it, because I was having a good hair day.



Anyways, I'm not out of the clear yet.. I still have math to finish and a project for tomarrow to finish... but I do feel better. Have a bit of breathing room.

Now, you have to watch this naughty video.

Uncertain

John Boord is graduating from college in less than 15 days....

That man busted his ass all year and really deserves a great job, which he may get really soon. He's totally gonna be that friend that always has money now, which means Chris will have to step down from that pedestal and be the guy that has money, but not as much as Johnny B. Hehe.

I'm really happy for him.

And then there's me. I look at John Boord and see a guy who has already paved the way for a great life. He's set. He know's what he wants... But me? I don't know what the fuck I'm doing.

Who knows where I'm going. What I'm going to do.. I'm just totally making it up as I go along and..

I can't even decide if I'm happy or not.

Loved?

So, I come home from Ohio yesterday.. and my Mom comes in and tells me they're selling the car that's supposed to be mine.

...

Great.



Then my mom asked "When are you going to your Dad's, so we can plan around you because we're going on vacation"

And I'm like, sweet, another vacation.

And then my Mom goes "Oh, so you can stay home and feed the animals."

-_-;

Thanks Mom, I missed you to.




(Actual Ohio update soon.)

And Thus Officially Marks The Beginning Of Summer

Oh myyy, 5AM.

I layed down earlier thinking it was bedtime.. but for some reason totally forgot that I was leaving for ohio in the morning and hadn't packed a thing.

You - " What!? Your going to Ohio!? No Way!"

Yup, yes way.

I mentioned it here before, but I never said a date. Well.. now I am, and the date is tomarrow.

Anyways, I don't know what possessed me to lay down for bed... lots on the brain perhaps? Who knows, all that matters is that it diddn't last long. I've been preparing ever since.

I could've totally used the assistance of a female whilst packing... it's not my thing.

Cedar Point lineup includes myself, Chris, Greg, Justin, Shanna and featuring special guest Dan Decooman. God, I havn't seen that boy in what feels like ages, and I'm pumped.

I'm gonna be gone until Wednesday, and I must say I'm a bit proud of myself for being on the ball when it comes to school. I'm already caught up with Math and I'm taking my illustration with me to work on during downtime in the Hotel.

*cheesey smile*

Look Mah! I'm being responisble! Aren't you proud of me!?

Anyways, I'm gonna take a ton of pictures, so be prepared to look at them all. I mean it.

This is the first time I'm taking a trip like this with just my friends.. there's always been a big stinky grownup there to ruin the fun.. but it's just us, and that's pretty sweet.

Now, if only I could ride Monorail Cat there.



Back in a few days!

Random Things I've Been Thinking About

*I want to make a personal website this summer
*I want to give my Dad and Stepmom an illustration of them this summer to make up for their lack of christmas gift
*I'm really starting to become passionate about blogging/journal updating
*I want to make a subject centered website (movies? games? pornography?)
*I want to go to Canada this summer with Dave, but am afraid I won't be able to afford it amidst everything else I'm trying to do
*I really want to see the 69 Eyes
*I can't wait to go to Jersey, but am afraid it's going to be boring
*I really need to start a diet. I asked my Mom this morning if my one of my favorite shirts made me look like a fatty
*I like my arms and shoulders
*I'm paranoid my man-boobs have gotten bigger
*I'm thinking of getting an ab-lounge like Chris
*I'm pumped for Cedar Point (No brainer there)
*I can't wait for class to be over, not because I dislike it (because I've actually been enjoying it) but because I've been really stressed and it's the center
*I wish I had time to just sit down and play Zelda. Damn it.
*I really can't wait for Super Smash Bros. Brawl to come out
*I'm pissed I havn't seen Pirates yet.
*I lack cash
*I'm going to be late for class
*All nighters kill me on the inside
*I'm still torn on whether or not to stay in Monongahela for Fall quarter
*I'm afraid of failing math
*I'm afraid of math
*I could go for a dew right now

...

*I'm thinking of such remedial things so hard so I distract myself from what's really bothering and upsetting me.

>.<

The only thing harder to do than math is trying to do math with stuff on your mind.

I get distracted easily.. even more so than normal.

Hence the new blog look... I suddenly decided I diddn't like it so I scrapped it. Which.. I'm not a fan of this one either, but I diddn't have much of a chance to tinker with it.

I'll tinker later.

Now, off to be less irresponsible. -_-

Let Me Show You Them

There are only 2 things in my life that when I look at them, they will instantly cheer me up when I'm down.

Humorous pictures of various cats.




And Dave trying to be a tiger.

Uncle Jim > Everything Else

Uncle Jim went on vacation.

It's odd not having him in the house now. He's been living with us for around 7 months or so now and he's become a lasting part of the household. It's nice having him around, and now, even with him gone for 2 days, it doesn't feel right.


On another note...
I'm confused.

I just kind of wish life was layed out for me, and I knew what to do and what was to come.

I guess that'd take the experience out of life.. but it would make things a lot easier.


On one last note...
Everything else > Math

Yet.. I still hate cutting grass more than math.. and that's pretty steep.

The Mystical Ninja Taught Me A Lesson

So today, while I was avoiding math work, I decided to fire up Johnny B's Wii, because I havn't given it much love as of late... I've just been far to busy. It understood though.

Anyways, at the current moment, I diddn't feel like jumping into a vast game like Twilight Princess... I just wanted a quick run through a game I've never played before...

The virtual console is my best friend for this kind of situation.

Even though I basically just bought John an 8 dollar SNES game (you can't copy them to an SD card), I diddn't care... I really wanted to try this game call The Mystical Ninja. I played the N64 games from that francise, and I love both of them. Which is a little odd because on a critical stand point they're nothing amazing.. but they have this kind of flare that makes them irrisistable.. and because of that I'm a huge fan of the francise so I had to give the original a try.

Playing through this game I realized something...

Old games are hard!

I think games of today spoil us. What with saving and 3D and everything else.. you rarely come across a game anymore that has hard ass boss battles where when you lose (and you will) your bumped alllll the way back to the beginning of the level. I was getting really pissed off. I was about to run with my tail between my legs and pop in Zelda just because the bosses arn't so damn intimidating. Sheesh.

You really gotta appreciate old game design... I think they were going in a totally different direction in 1992 as opposed to 2007. I mean, the story was at a bare ass minimum, the dialog was terrible and the enemy sprites has about 2 or 3 different poses in their animations.. but at the time this kind of game was a gem. Why? Because as crude as it is to look at, it's damn fun. Nowadays if there isn't a billion polygons in somone's beard the gaming community gets it panties in a bunch.

I love polygons as much as the next guy, but once in awhile you gotta look back at what built the gaming industry, and appreciate it for what it should be.

Fun.

No Wonder I'm A Fatty Mcfat Fat

... I went through 7 cans of dew tonight during my crusade of trying to finish my work..

That's rediculous. I wouldn't be suprised if my heart stopped or something.

Old Habits Die Hard

Here I am again...

Assignments due tomarrow and only a few hours between them and I. The past couple days I've been doing shit for school and I'm still behind as hell. I'd be lying if I said I diddn't procrastinate... but even still I put in a lot of effort.. yet here I am pulling another all nighter.

I'm kind of proud of myself.. this is only my second all nighter of the quarter.. pretty impressive compared to like the 10 times I did it last year. I know it's not healthy but sometimes I just can't avoid it. Ok, well, i guess I could avoid it... but I'm a risk taker.. living life on the edge. heh.. yeah right.

Plus it has this odd sense of relaxation about it...

So far I've gone through 2 cans of dew and I'm almost done with my 3rd... sometimes I think caffeine is the only thing keeping me alive.

Ooooh well, I guess I should stop procrastinating, it's not gonna get me anywhere..

Video Picks

Some new vids I've come across you all must watch.



Tony Blair was probably the only name I knew when taking Current Even quizes in High School.

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300 a bit hardcore? Here's the PG version of the trailer!! =D Genuis.

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You really have to appreciate badass video game themes... and these two remixes are some of the most badass around.

<3 Duke Nukem

I remember way back in 4th grade there was a party kind of thing where Sean Taylor's Mom was helping out with, and as I was walking by Sean goes to his mom "Mom, Jordan is allowed to have Duke Nukem for the 64, why can't I??" And I'll never forget how awesome I felt that my parents irresponsibly let me play a rediculously violent game I shouldn't have been playing.

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And this... this is just genuis.

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I know I havn't had much of a post lately, I;ve been completely stacked lately, I havn't had much time for anything.

Something alittle more worth while soon.

Mr. Grumpy Gills

So, I kind of goofed last night.

I was having a seriously irritating night last night at work and every little thing towards the night set me off. I don't know why, because that's really not like me, but I just had a serious chip on my shoulder.

Well, apparently I was a bit of a jerk to the wrong customer last night because I got a call from Jess earlier today saying that there was a guy there complaining about me saying I was really rude and stuff..

Granted I probably was but at the time I diddn't really notice. Really I was mostly just trying to keep to myself and get the guy out of there asap before I really did flip, because I was just having a long ass night and every time I was trying to do something someone came in and it really bugged me.

Uuuugh, I feel really stupid.. because at the time I diddn't think anything of it.. aaannd, now I regret it cuz he's threatening to file a complaint and all this stuff.. bad call on my part, hm?

I guess I just don't take this kind of stuff well because I don't know how to handle it. Apparently he's coming in tomorrow, maybe to talk to me? Who knows.. I guess I should just apologize to the guy.. to bad I kind of crumble in these kinds of situations..

Ohhh well.. my bad, I goofed, I'm just hoping I don't have to confront this guy or my manager... but I have a feeling I'm going to have to. The only thing that would make this really bad if another person comes in complaining of the same thing.. because that would make me look really really bad.

Next time, maybe I'll count to 10 before I get my panties in a bunch, hm?

OH MY GOD .. it's A Shark

Sheesh, I've been busy. And this week that's not gonna change.. I got so much going on.

I kinda like it though in some strange way... when I keep moving like this it makes me feel good. It makes me feel useful. And that's a good feeling. I have to cut the grass later.. and... there is probably no other thing on this planet I hate more than cutting grass.. but I'm ok with it for some reason. I'm not trying to find any and every excuse in the book to get out of it.. I'm just accepting my responsibilities I guess. Same goes for school. I have to pull off some amazing shit to get the shit done I need to.. especially my History and Analysis of Design class... I don't know how I'm going to pull off finishing it.. but I got this.

Maybe it's the weather, I don't know.. but I feel good.

Er.. well.. mentally. On the physical side not so much. We got Powerade in at work on Saturday and I drank so much I think it irritated my throat.. not to mention gave me a nasty soar in my mouth (Just what you wanted to hear, hm?). I just feel like shit, basically.. but it's all good. I just have to lay off the powerade.

Spiderman 3 was amazing, don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

On another note.. it appears to be confirmed I'm going on a little Cedar Point trip for a few days. June 3rd seems to be the day we're leaving, so I'm pretty pumped for that. =)

Another Blog

So, because I've been on this whole movie kick as of late, and I really don't want to drown you all with movie babble in this blog, I decided to make a seperate blog where I can talk and babble about movies and review them and whatnot without worrying about boring those who could give a rat's left testicle.

Check it out if you'd like, I'm gonna try to keep up with it.

http://diabolicviews.blogspot.com/

Wise Words Of Mr. Opalko

So, at the moment I'm on my 10 minute break for my History and Analysis of Design class (Or Anal, as Ross and I refer to it) and I just had to hop on for a few minutes for this brief moment of inspiration.

My teacher, Mr. Opalko was just talking and babblin like he does oh so well, and he started talking about something that has been on my mind for many, many, many weeks now.

He started talking about professions and majors. He started talking about how he had a ton of different jobs and never kept interested. Until he got into visual arts.

He said he worked in construction and all these things but visual arts was what really interested him. He got into it on the soul grounds that he enjoyed it and that he was happy doing it.

Then he said something that basically summed everything I've been questioning when it comes to wondering if Graphic Design is right for me.

"I'd rather be doing this, than anything else."

When I think of all these things I could do, I really start to appreciate the field I chose.

The last damn thing want to do is work in construction or something.

Or worse.

Work at Subway for the rest of my years.

Operation Distractionless Begins

This is the last time I'll be on for awhile, because as soon as I finish this entry I'm going to unplug my computer until further notice. Some people may wonder why I'm making a big deal out of this.. I realize many people don't even have a computer. But it's just one of those thing where you get attached to something and when you realize it's the source of a problem it's hard to pull away from it. I'm a total internet junkie. Complete and utter computer nut is what I'm about... take that away and I'm just a nut.

not to big a deal though, I'll probably give up in 3 days.

At another note, I went to see Grindhouse Sunday night. Quite possibly one of the single greatest films I've seen in years. It's the definition of guy movie in every sense of the word. I highly recommend it to anyone.. granted they don't get offended easily or have weak stomachs. But honestly, the direction and writing and over the top exploition of the old style movie art form is worth every penny. Definitely made it's way into my top 10 list within the first hour. No lie.

In a word... Genius.

I've become such a movie junkie in the past few months. I live for that stuff. Almost makes me wonder if I'm in the right field.. but no time to wonder that now.

My goal this summer is to see every movie on my list, which I have updated a bit. As the summer goes on I'll cross off what movies I've seen and maybe put a 1-10 rating next to them.

Heh, like your all that interested =P Oh well.. I'm a sucker for things like this so just humor me.

(Already seen and rated struck through) (New additions bolded)(Really pumped for in Red)
Blades Of Glory 8.7
Aqua Teen Hunger Force Colon Movie Film For Theaters 8.5
Disturbia 8.9
Grindhouse 10
Hot Fuzz
The Condemned
The Invisible
Spiderman 3
28 Weeks Later
Shrek The Third
Pirates Of The Carribean: At World's End
Knocked Up
Ocean's Thirteen
Rise Of The Silver Surfer
Evan Almighty
Live Free or Die Hard
Rataouille
Transformers
Harry Potter And The Order Of The Phoenix
I Now Pronounce You Chuck And Larry
The Simpsons Movie
The Bourne Ultimatum
Rush Hour 3
Super bad
Mr. Woodcock
Resident Evil: Extinction

God I'm gonna be so poor..

Scorn For Teenage Girls

I need to go to bed, I gotta get up at like 8 or so, buut, instead I'd rather browse Myspace and blog. Sounds like a good time, right?

Sure it does.

I've been thinking a lot today.. and I think that's may be a good reason why I'm still awake, but oh well. All I know is that it has nothing to do with the 4 vaults I had at work today.

Oh no.

I've thought a bit more on the whole putting my computer away issue and I think I may do it.. or at least something similar. My stepdad wasn't the most keen with hording it away mainly because he knows as well as I do that I'll just go and get it. Heh. At the very least if I just unplug the thing i can save myself and him the trouble of walking up and down the stairs with the fucking thing risking dropping it then I'm really out of luck. Although.. that would give me the time to do my project while it's getting fixed. But what if it wouldn't be able to be fixed? Yeah, bad times. I'm putting some thought into this but I really think that if I do something like this it'll be a great help for me and my grades. I need to make a ton of progress between now and Thursday... no room for fucking up.

.. Yet I'm gonna be out all day tomorrow and a good bit of Monday. Well.. I could always just go with the excuse of I work better under pressure. Yeah. That totally works for me.

Last night I saw Disturbia, which I thought was great. Shia Lebough is the fucking man. Pumped for him in Transformers. Robots. Lewis from Even Stevens. Sold.

Behind us in the theaters was this mass of 13 year old girls who screamed their god damn lungs out every time something the least bit startling happened. Oh god. I wanted to pop each and every one of them in the mouth. It was terrible. There should be a ban on retards in public places, I swear. But then all the stupid people of the world (which there sure are a lot of) will ban together and try to figure out a way to protest. Luckily for us they're to dumb to figure it out.

So we win.

You know who also wins? Steph for being able to digest the brain of a squid. DO squids have brains? Well.. if they do, this one is seriously lacking one now.

Desperate Times Call For Desperate Measures

So, I havn't updated for alittle while.. mainly because even though i've had a decent bit to talk about, I just havn't really felt like it.

John Boord let me borrow his Wii for a while while he takes midterms and things... this is great for me cuz I've been waiting to play Zelda:Twilight Princess for quite some time. I've very grateful and really appreciate him letting play it for awhile.. and for that.. he is my new god.



I encourage everyone to do so.



Anyways, so, I've been in a bit of a slump lately. I've just felt down. I would get inspired to go gung ho about things, and then something happens and I just fall apart. I don't feel like doing anything productive. Not a thing. I don't know what's wrong with me and it's really really bringing me down.

I really like my Illustration class. I've mentioned this before. I really like the whole idea of what an Illustrator does and what they are about.. but I just can't get myself to be serious about this class. I had to miss last week because of some unforeseen circumstances.. and you'd think I'd kick into gear and catch up..

Think again.

I mean.. call it lazy, call it what you want.. but I think it has a lot to do with distractions and me just overall not feeling like doing anything.

So.. I had a sudden thought.. something that could probably kill me.

But.. I realize a big reason to me being distracted is my little baby I call my computer. I can't pull away from the thing. I just can't do it. It's been pretty obvious but I never wanted to accept the fact that this is a big reason why I'm slipping, probably because I love it so much and don't want to be without it... sitting on my computer has become a part of my daily life and pulling away from that is hard.

But..

I really, really think I need to pull away for a bit. At the very least until midterm when this project is finished. I'm thinking maybe just giving my computer tower to my Stepdad for a few, or maybe just simply giving him my keyboard and mouse so that i can still stay connected to aim in case anyone wants to message me. but to be honest it would probably be more effective if I just got rid of it all together.

John Boord doesn't think I can do it. He said flat out he has absolutely no faith in me. Not that I blame him.. I do have a habit of getting great ideas and never following through with them..

But this is serious. I need to find a way to get myself back into school. It's become a serious problem that I constantly think about and I have to do something to help myself.

What do you think? Think I can do it? Give up the computer for a few weeks so I'm not distracted to go on the computer? I don't know..

If I go through with this, I'll probably start it on Monday.. but I think I really want to give this a shot. I don't want to be useless anymore.

If I do this, I will still have access to the internet via the Wii, so maybe I'll still post blogs and stuff to keep everyone updated? Maybe that's cheating.. but to be honest I can't use the Wii's internet browser for very long before I go mad with lack of keyboard.

Well, let me know what you think of this.. think I can do it? I'll give the final word tomorrow or Monday.

I'm tired of complaining about this. I'm tired of being useless. It's time to step up.

Video Picks

I'm a bit of a closet Modest Mouse fan, and their new album is incredible.

Not to mention their new single's video is one of the coolest music videos I've seen in a long ass time.


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I also have a huge soft spot for the new Linkin Park single. I don't know what it is, but I can't get enough of it. The video is also really sweet.


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And then there's this.



I don't want to play Quinten Tarentino Theater anymore.

I Got This.

I have to admit... I'm really glad I came to this school. To be honest I'm still not sure if College is going the way I wanted it to.. but out of any other school out there this is the one for me. Everyone's different, and I wouldn't last a day at a place like Penn State or even Cal U.. it's just not me. Hell.. I still have problems focusing here, but either way, I'm pretty satisfied with how things have turned out here.

I've met a lot of awesome people, some of them I've become good friends with and I'm really happy about that.

















I'm really grateful for my friends, the year so far wouldn't be what it is without them.

Heh, I'm being corny today, I know it.. but I guess I'm just in one of those appreciative moods.

On another note, today was my first day of the new quarter and my first class was Intermediate Illustration. I can honestly say that class has lit some kind of fire in me when it comes to this school and my art. I hit this sort of slump, not really knowing what I'm doing here and was having a problem finding something that suits me, but that class really interests me. We're starting to step into some heavy and sometimes difficult stuff, and I dig it.

Illustrating is an insane field to get a job in... the competition is ridiculous, but it's very rewarding.

This is the site of one of my teachers, who does illustrating for clients on the side .
http://www.benderillustration.com/
He's amazing and really creative. That's the kind of thing I'd like to do one day.

But who knows.